Those two little lines can evoke a whole range of emotions, and you may find that you feel them all at once- or feel nothing at all- when pregnant again after a previous loss.
The holiday season can be painful for those who have lost a loved one. Celebrations bring a reminder of what was and what will not be. They represent milestones that should have been met- particularly for grieving parents who should be anticipating a winter due date or dreaming of their baby's first Christmas.
The decision to pee on the pregnancy test or not felt impossible.
On one hand, I couldn’t bear to see another negative result. On the other, I figured if we found out early, we could start the necessary interventions and maybe this pregnancy would make it. Or, I could find out early, miscarry again, and be devastated anyway. Dammit. Maybe it’s better to never know.